

juniper

come get lost in the forest with me
Come get lost in the forest with me
To the trees to the trees to the trees
Root upon root, pulse against pulse
Step upon step in the breeze
Come get lost in the forest with me
Unrestrained, earthen
Stripped of yearning, we thrive in the irrefutable honesty
Heart beats and pumping blood, authentic salacious truth
I want it to be
Fearless, light, smooth
Like laughter in wine
Like air through our lungs
Like lips upon lips
Like your skin on my tongue
Translucent, lucid
The senses beat rhythmic riots deep
Clarified, sanctified, unrefined
The wisdom – your breath in your heart that heats in your palms
That dives in the groin that stirs in your thoughts that wakes you in dreams
The wisdom – your shine in your eyes that glows in your cheeks that makes your hands shake
That makes your laugh warmer your heartbeat pump faster
And your thoughts that ripple and pulse and steam and charge you, inspire you, transpire through you
The wisdom – your seeing, sensing, heeding the beat
She sends her messages clear
They’re under your skin
Dancing on your fingertips
Rippling up your spine
Gypsy soul, my blood like a flame
To the trees to the trees to the trees
Come get lost in the forest with me
Root upon root, pulse against pulse
Step upon step in the breeze
To the trees to the trees to the trees
Go so you can wake to the sound of the song sparrow’s kiss
Go so you can look in the eyes of the jay’s and know
Go so you can dive through the azure lake, pure and cleansed
Go so you can watch the junipers breathe and fill your soul with their scent
To fear would be to stop the pull of the wind, stop the heat of the fire
To fear would be to pluck the wings from a bird, pull the blaze from my eyes
Believe in the Earth, that is God, that is Divine, That is Magic
Heart felt poses to the trees and breathe
Go so the sun can set and rise on you
Go so you belong
Your feet in the soil, the pine’s needles sensually soft, a cushioned embrace
To the trees, the sunlight on the breeze
Step upon step
Come get lost with me
black bear, black bear
What Do You See?
I see you looking at me.
Smelling me
Interested in me.
We are united and I am curious
Why are you here giving me this gift
What do you want to teach me
Is it patience and trust, acceptance and love?
To be loved by a bear
Awed, wide-eyed
Electric
what more could excite and astonish my elk spirit?
I do not run from you
Even though you scare me
I let you in.
I see you.
There is a cool mist that curls in the valley
Where am I?
The field is tinged with green and gold
A fall golden glow
It sparkles from the dew and the sun, the perfect warming sun, that glints on the tips of the straw colored horizon
The grass has perfect highlights
It makes me smile, so many hues, morning birdsong
It’s all intensely unimaginable in it’s beauty
It feels like morning
I am going nowhere but forward
I am entirely at peace
I am strong, calm, fulfilled.
My gait is relaxed, not purposeful or rushed
I am strolling North
I go
The air is fresh and clear
Humid, pure, cleansing
I feel beautiful
Someone or something is near
I sense you and I glance East
A black bear
My heart lurches and thumps
I hold my breath
I will simply walk and leave the valley
So I carry on but
Then the bear looks at me, past me
And I follow her gaze
West
Another black bear and 2 baby cubs.
I am caught in the middle
I feel like a prey animal
I want to run
Or I want disappear into myself
I want to retreat
I take a breath and I walk slowly steadily watching them all
I look North towards my path in front of me
50 meters ahead more bears 3 or 4
They are lumbering around
Beautiful earthly magestic creatures
But still I gasp
I turn on my heel South
More bears behind me.
They are everywhere
At least 30 bears in my valley
Coming out of the forest that surrounds me
I have nowhere to go
So I surrender
I stop
There is nowhere to run.
This is me, I am here
To panic would be to lose everything
I cannot run from myself
I center, I ground
I succumb to the experience
I begin to breathe again
I will not be consumed by fear
I slow the rhythm of my heart
They move closer
They are inquisitive
I am so close I can see their big black wet noses twitching at me
Their kind brown eyes looking at me
We walk together then
There is no fear
There is peaceful beauty
This is a gift
I am loved by these bears so I let my walls down
The door is open now and it is flooded with light and possibility
We walk we walk we walk
until there is lessened interest
We are just spirits walking in the most extraordinary valley circled in mist
The black bears and me

alongside, in unison: a vision
Today I wake with positivity, with hope, with gratitude.
I walk in that hope…a vision.
Good morning to the graceful, fresh deer tracks in the dirt
Good morning to the brisk tracks my dogs lay alongside hers
Good morning to mine, that follow.
I mesh alongside them, both graceful and brisk
In unison
Can we learn to move together, to live together, to co-exist?
Good morning to the full, blossoming dandelions that grow wild and free alongside the hay crop.
Humbly, I watch the bumble bee in the alfalfa and the weeds
At the blooming flowers
Taking, making, sharing, and bringing the necessary ecosystem into full circle
In full unison
The bumble bee knows not the division we have created within the flower
She only knows their nectar.
I walk alongside them
Today I woke with positivity, with hope, with gratitude.
I walked in that hope…the vision
Until the sound boomed across me, over me and I’m awakened from my fantasy, from my positivity.
I’m trying so hard.
Good morning blue sky…
I’m sorry that the plane raced overhead spreading toxic herbicides and pesticides
I’m sorry that your skies are filled with chemical
I raise my palms to you in offering of healing
I have tears in my eyes.
I feel your pain
I feel the Earth as me when she is tortured and sickened
In unison.
I’ve tuned into her, and I can’t go back
I can smell the chemicals
I can taste their sick bitterness on my lips
I can feel them in my throat.
I’m sorry perfect, smooth beauty of a sky that circles me, frames me, blankets me in stars
I wish I could protect you and the Earth under you
I’m sorry that the spray plane ignites past you in a flurry of noise and chemical
Bursting with pollutants, carcinogens, death.
I don’t know how to co-exist with this
My lungs, my skin, my babies, the deer, the dogs don’t want to be washed in chemical.
We don’t want to be bathed in it.
I don’t know how to co-exist with this
I need a clean space
Does it exist anymore?
Good-bye industry
I can’t be amongst this anymore.
I care for my body and worship it with its power, potential, its gift of purity, nature, breath
I raise my palms, open, in question, in need of guidance
I want to walk this Earth for as long as I can
This powerful Earthly paradise…
She can’t handle anymore, and I am her
Please can we wake up, it hurts
We need to protect her, we are HER
In unison
We walk alongside the Earth, with her, in her, we are her
I cannot fix the Earth
But maybe I can help, let me make it happen
One breath at a time
I will wish
I will manifest change for my family
I will blow the dandelions fluff, the pappus, West
A wish for good fate
A wish for my children
A wish for my children to breathe with me in the rainforest
Where we can be together, alongside, in unison
Where the trees breathe with us, and the evergreens, forever staunch in their profound wisdom pour their hearts and souls into us just through their pure presence
Where we are sound amongst them
Where we are one there amongst that air of purity
Alongside them, in unison
A vision.
Let us walk among them in community and unity and let us help protect them as not my children but as my teachers and mentors
Let us sit amongst them and allow them to be our greatest teachers
And I promise to mother their baby saplings with the tenderness and love I impart to my blood children.
Because
They are my souls
In unison
Please let us walk amongst them, with her, in her.
A vision.


